So This is Christmas

This morning I had a dream that I was in Bermuda and my dad was there.

He fell and split his hand open between the peace fingers - the pointer and middle fingers.

A nice, deep, bright pink gash right down his hand.

I asked the receptionist at the hotel to call an ambulance and she said an ambulance would take way too long to get there.

So, how do I get to the hospital from here, I asked her.

She started telling me a bunch of different stories, never getting to directions.

I looked at another lady for directions and she started talking about how the receptionist never gets to the point and everything else but how to get to the hospital.

I couldn't communicate to these people the urgency of my dad's need for help, and he was relying on me.

He was suffering and I couldn't get him the help he needed. I didn't know how.

Bad, bad feeling.

I woke up from this awful dream and went to Yogini's yoga class at Grace Lutheran Church.

Throughout the entire class I thought about eating sunnyside-up eggs.

This is bizarro because I haven't craved eggs in forever. I don't usually eat eggs.

Then I added smoked salmon to the eggs. First I imagined a slice of salmon on top of the egg, but this didn't satisfy me.

I decided I should put a slice of smoked salmon underneath the egg, then roll it up like a stuffed crepe. Warm yoke oozing all over the salmon.

Then, I added whipped cream cheese with chives to the whole thing.

I kept visualizing these eggs. With coffee.

After class Yogini gave us each a Hershey's kiss. Mine had caramel in it. After I ate mine my craving for the eggs went away.

So this is Christmas ...

Eggs for Christmas. Why not?

Let the cards fall.

The other night I went to a talk on the Bhagavad Gita with Krisnadas. He said when something in your life falls apart, just let the cards fall.

He also said when you're in the presence of a realized person, you feel completely unjudged, and this is such a relief.

He said much more, but these are the two things that have stayed with me most.

If you have a chance to hear Krisnadas speak, do it. He'll be at Grace Lutheran Church New Year's Eve starting at 10 pm.

Merry Christmas, my lovely blog-reading family =)